i think im having issues deciding whats next as far as what am i suppose to do with myself, i really tend to be down on myself for not being in a better position as far as work goes, and then i have a a backlash in my head from that and think FUCK IT IM STILL YOUNG WHY SHOULD I GROW UP YET!! its really craziness. what to do?????
i want to have fun! ! ! ! !
maybe ill get j to go to the beach for a walk later